The Unexpected Life

  • Remembering

    Remembering

    Last week at church, we were singing a song by Phil Wickham that took me right back to the darkest moments of our infertility journey.  The song is This is Our God and there is a particular verse that goes: Remember that fear that took our breath away?  Faith so weak that we could barely

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  • Say What You Wanna Say

    Say What You Wanna Say

    Ever since I can remember, I’ve found it difficult to volunteer my opinions or thoughts in a group setting. Put me one-on-one, and I’m pretty comfortable sharing what I think. But in a group, it gets really tough for me. I’m way more likely to just keep silent, except for offering the occasional joke. A

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  • The trouble is…

    The trouble is…

    Another year has arrived, and with it the onslaught of messaging telling us to become better versions of ourselves. Kent and I were talking about this as New Year’s Eve approached and I asked him if he was making any resolutions this year. He said “no” with such disdain it was as though he was

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  • Merry & Bright

    Merry & Bright

    This holiday season is the first in awhile where I haven’t felt the looming presence of heartache and anxiety. For the past few Christmases, we’ve been firmly on the infertility roller coaster. Last Christmas, I had just finished the second round of IVF and found out I was pregnant. While it was very exciting, I

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  • How Did I Get Here? (Pt. 2)

    If you missed Part 1, catch up here. (TW: miscarriage, infertility) The tears come streaming down your face… The week after that fateful ultrasound was probably one of the worst of my life. I had bloodwork done that seemed to indicate my pregnancy was progressing, even though there were other signs that we’d lost the

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  • How Did I Get Here? (Pt. 1)

    (TW: miscarriage, infertility) Sometimes I find myself having just waved goodbye to my 4 year old son as he boards the bus, staring at two dozing babies and a sleeping dog and wonder “how did I get here?”  The dog is an easy answer – I married a man who I’m fairly certain loves dogs

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